My whole email is going to be focused on one experience so I hope that’s
Zenah was set for baptism March 26. It seemed too good to be true as I
was saying in my last email. She loves and accepts everything and is
SO PREPARED I thought it can’t be that easy!
And then Friday (the day of her interview) she calls
“Hi Zenah how are you?”
“I’m going to have to cancel the baptism. I can’t go through with it
My heart just dropped.
She then explained how she has been receiving tons of opposition from
her family because of her baptism all of a sudden and that she loves
the truths we have taught but she just isn’t meant to be a Mormon
because of her family situation but maybe one day she will be but
there is no way she can go through with it at least for a few years
until things settle down.
At first I felt tons of frustration at satan. It is always the week
before the baptism when he tries his hardest and the one thing that he
could use on Zenah was her family. I just was upset. On the phone we
told her a lot of things but we wanted her to recognize this
opposition was there for a reason. We also told her how this is
between her and Heavenly Father and asked if she would pray about it,
because that’s what matters. We asked if we could still come today to
talk with her and she said she needed some time and that her family
was making things really tense.
We ended the phone call and just sat there for a second. I kept thinking
We fasted for her on Saturday and I studied for her all that morning
because we planned on stopping by and talking with her.
The invitation of the Savior kept coming to mind “Follow Me.”
I looked up scriptures with those words in them.
A few that really hit me for her were:
12 And also, the voice of the Son came unto me, saying: He that is
baptized in my name, to him will the Father give the Holy Ghost, like
unto me; wherefore, follow me, and do the things which ye have seen me
do. (2 Nephi 31)
20 And they straightway left their nets, and followed him. (Matthew 4)
27 ¶Then answered Peter and said unto him, Behold, we have forsaken
all, and followed thee; what shall we have therefore?…
29 And every one that hath forsaken houses, or brethren, or sisters,
or father, or mother, or wife, or children, or lands, for my name’s
sake, shall receive an hundredfold, and shall inherit everlasting
life. (Matthew 19)
The word follow takes trust. We need to trust the person asking us to
follow them and trust that they are taking us somewhere better than
what we are leaving behind. As we strive to follow the Savior it takes
leaving something behind and trusting that He has something better in
As we sat down with Zenah she explained where she was coming from and
that baptism is just impossible with this situation.
Different than my plans, I felt the need to have her read 1 Nephi 3:7
After reading it she said “wow”. Then after a long pause she said
something like “baptism is a commandment of God and yes I have been
baptized but not by the proper authority of God… Hmm…”
I thought what.. How did she get that from that scripture? I was just
in awe at what the Spirit was teaching her. It was from that point on
in the lesson that I realized just how much Heavenly Father wants this
for her and how this is not me that will be teaching this lesson.
After that realization she went back into how she can’t possibly cause
contention between her family and how they are her support system
financially as well.
I said look at the end of that scripture we just read, “for I know
that the Lord giveth no commandments unto the children of men, save he
shall prepare a way for them that they may accomplish the thing which
he commandeth them.”
She really took a second glance at this point and another “wow” came
from her. We promised He would provide a way for her.
We continued to show her more scriptures, the ones that we had found
in our studies and her mind was enlightened. She really started to see
the importance of all of this and how if she puts her trust in Him, He
will provide. It was by far the most incredible lesson I have ever
had, towards the end you could really tell that she knew what needed
to be done. She said she would really pray about it but there’s no way
she can go through with the baptism any time soon.
On Sunday she came to church. I was somewhat surprised but it was the
best surprise ever. We explained to Bishop the situation and he said
he would love to talk with her and see how he can help her. So after
church she met with bishop.
We waited for her outside and once she came out we hugged her and she
said the best sentence I have ever heard
“I want to go through with my baptism.”
She explained how Bishop said some of the exact things we said
yesterday to her. She explained how she felt so at peace as he
promised her that it would all work out if she does what Heavenly
Father asks of her.
We were speechless.
She later explained how yesterday when we were talking with her she
was wondering why we would care so much or be so concerned for her if
she didn’t get baptized. Then apparently right after that thought came
into her mind I said “I care this much about this because I know how
much your Father in Heaven wants this for you. I can feel it”
She said that stuck with her.
I just felt overwhelmingly grateful for the Spirit at this point
knowing that I had no idea what her thoughts were.
It was just incredible really. I have never seen the Lord’s hand so
much. I think this experience was more for me than Zenah. I have come
to see and feel in the most real sense that Heavenly Father is there
and that He wants nothing more than to have His children live with Him
again. I have felt it with Zenah and I have felt it within myself as
He has let me see His hand through miracles like this. I felt so upset
about things and I realized I need to trust in Him just as much as I
am counseling Zenah to. Trust that everything will work out as I turn
to Him. And it did it all worked out!
We are now replanning her baptism for April 1st or 2nd so we have time
to get people there.
I love this whole mission thing.
I don’t remember what they look like, but I know more than anything
else that Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ live. They love us each
more than we can comprehend. I love Them and miss Them and am grateful
I have the opportunity to show my gratitude for Them through the way I
live each day.